The slightest.

I wish i could rap.
Man Drake is lucky.
>___>
"Why do i feel so alone, like everybody walking through the studio is in character like we acting out of movie roles."
It feels like that in school.
Diana, you were my movie, and all of our "friends" were just actors in our movie.
Well, to me actually.
"Life is so full, now the shit is just being lypoed."
I don't care about your life, it sucks to know i used to be in your life.
Haha, Drake transitions from fitting in to standing out.
Mine is vice versa.
I walk through the hallways i used to walk.
Pass the people i use to be cool with.
Now they just give me looks like they are much more mature than me.
Like they have never leaned on my shoulder before.
Like i haven't done anything for them.
Then you come along walking around with 5 different bitch ass niggas.
"Slip up and shoot the wrong fucking video."
"If you think i change then the slightest coulda fooled me"
"Lost some of my hottest verses down in Cabo".
You were my verses, 2-24-07 was my Cabo.
When somebody says that they actually "Feel you"
Haha, you're no where near my pain.
Nobody is.
All pain is different.
But i heard that pain is just weakness leaving your body.
It's cool though.
What if i got shot?
What if i got in a fight?
What if i got in a car accident?
What if i got jumped?
What if my parents died?
What if my dad died on duty?
What if my mom tried stopping a fight and got hit?
What if Caleb or Cheyanne gets kid-napped?
Haha, when people care about you, they'll be there.
When people actually are your "friend" they won't stop talking to you cause you stopped talkign to somebody else.
When people are "tippin on my dick" my friends laugh about it.
Yeah, i'll talk how i please, no biggy.
I wanna get my hours in, i wanna get my liscense already.
I need to drive off somewhere.
For some reason, even though i'm not that good at driving, i love doing it.
It releaves(sp) ALOT of stress.
Even though your not suppose to drive when your mad.
I can't beleive i actually did that.
It was a really retarded move.
Oh and Theo, you better stop with those fucking looks.
I don't give a fuck who your friends are, better check yo shit cuh.
I hate how bitterness in people actually get to me.
You know when you act like you don't care, and sometimes you do.
That shit gets me all the time.


-Pillow talk

You think it's funny?

Ha, my dad is like super-human or something.
He had to take 3 sleeping medicine thingys.
I remember that one story he told me when he broke his arm.
I swear my dad is like super-human or something like it.
Gah, he made breakfast this morning.
It was pretty good, hadn't had pan de sal in a long ass time.
Damn dude, i need to get over this.

-Official.

Mobile to mobile.

Not one tear, not one smile.
You think everything is okay.
It might be for you, it might be for me.
What you think is wonderful, might be wonderful.
What you think is horrible, most likely is horrible.
I don't like what happen anymore than you do.
I don't show you dis respect in school.
I don't go around school giving you dirty looks.
I don't go to school to show off how happy i am.
I go to school and try to live my life.
But when you have somebody constantly hawking you.
Constantly giving you horrible looks.
Constantly telling people to back the fuck off.
Constantly induring horrible words.
Constantly having my gaurd up.
Constantly having to hear and see horrible things.
I already know what your gonna do.
Your gonna relate to what i'm goin through.
And for some odd reason, your reasons are better than mine.
For some odd reason, it seems like your just that much better than me.
And i end up saying sorry, and i just end up feeling sorry for you.
Maybe that's how everybody else is too.
Maybe your story is just a little bit better than theirs for them to feel bad for you.
And for some reason even though i "seek for pity", your the one who always gets it.
When guys see me in the hall way it's always "so you going out with Diana still?"
I literally walk the halls alone.
It's very very very lucky to walk with somebody to class.
Cause all the people i used to walk to class with for some reason, don't walk with me no more.
MAN i need a fucking job.
Or some after school curicullar(sp) activities.
I found a MMA place.
My cousin Alex, that you think is cute.
Yeah he does that shit.
And i asked him, "After kuya RJ died, how'd you take it?"
"Idk man, it was hard, i just tried to take my mind off of it."
"Yeah but how the hell do you deal with it at night?"
"I don't Chris. I deal with it on the mat."
"Huh?"
"I'll show you, it's real fun."
Haha, so that day, we spent at the mats.
He beat the shit out of me.
I didn't tell you this cause i know you don't like me fighting.
Organized or un-organized.
But i mean, i know you don't care about what i do now.
So i found a place.
Just letting you know.
Maybe this will help me out when it isn't wrestling season.
If them people got something to say to me let them say it.
Alex taught me somethings.
I really hope somebody does have the balls to take me on.
OR at least tell me something, cause i have something to say right back.
Let me do me, mother fucker i'm me.
I'll let you do you, mother fucker your you.
It's a song.
Chill, i'm not callin you a mother fucker.
I hope i can get through it, cause i'll tell you the truth.
It hasn't hit me yet, but sitting here, looking at some things, makes me wanna get hit.
Not physically, emotionally.

-New driver.

fidelity.mp3

Dooooooooooooooooooode, i can't believe i heard that song yesterday.
Like i swear to god i was looking for that song for like 5 years.
I think it was since the 6th grade.
That's 5 years....right?
Haha, i look like fucking Matibags today.
>________>
My shirt is tight as shit, my jeans look like fucking straight legs when they are fucking boot-cuts, my shoes are fake!
I have a hole in my shirt under my right armpit and it is annoying as shit.
I think my shirt is like the only thing that is bothering me right now.
I'm really glad you lost it.
I didn't want to take it back anyway.
Lol so in my mind you still have it.
;) it helps.
But please don't come around reminding me you don't have it.
Then i'll just regret letting you lose it and not give it to me.
I know you wanted me to do you a favor, to find a nice girl.
And i will, well later on.
And my favor to you was to throw away the necklace.
And you did it, sort of.
Well thanks okay?
If it looks like i'm not fine right now, i'm probably not.
But from now on, nothings fake, i'm not afraid anymore.
You shouldn't be either.

-Wakka FLAKKA!

I'll stop.

When i have a reason to stop!
>________________<
I can't breathe out my nose man.
It's hot as shit.
I'm actually wearing a freaking beater(sp).
It feels weird cause i usually don't wear one.
I'm wearing the shirt Christa had bought me.
My thighs hurt like shit

-Lawyer

Issues.

Well hey, i'm sorry.
I wanted to talk you, i didn't know what it was about.
But i still wanted to talk to you.
Sorry i was busy.
I was playing spades.
Domo was like literally gonna kill me cause i suck at spades.
=[ i felt so bad.
And all you kept saying was okay, it's okay, chill.
I'm sorry i was a little late.
Thank you for last night.
Brings back memories.
Gahh were such hypocrites(sp)
>__________________________<

-#1

Your face will get severed.

Ey ey, what it do my duh?
Haha, it's hard to live your life when you have a chip on your shoulder.
"Well the funny thing about that Jewels is my back is located on my cock." - Seth.
I think i'll go to Boston.
I really don't like MD.
It's getting annoying.
Good thing you made that decision Diana.
Somebody had to make it.
I mean, course since i'm just the big man i am, i let you make it from me.
Ha, sarcasm.
Well, i guess it was good for you.
It felt good last night.
Being in the same room with you.
Getting a massage.
Playing a card game every now and then.
It was fun, thanks for coming out.
I guess it's over now.
My lifes gone off track.
I guess it is over.
Haha, i can't say later cause it isn't gonna be later.
I guess all i can say is goodbye.
Well Diana, thank you for everything.
Goodbye.

Sincerely,
Chris

Sbeezy.

My eye is like killing me.
I got like a little thingy on my bottom eye lid.
It freaking hurts.
I wanna stick a hot ass needle to it and pop it.
OMG I GOT MY PERMIT!
Everybody told me it was hard.
Pshhh.
I only got 2 wrong.
Hahahaha okay i almost failed it though.
Conner got me a hat.
Diana got me gauges.
>__________________<
I can't wait for tomorrow.
G-pa and G-ma coming!

-B-day boy.

Birthday.

My mom says i was born at 12 something in the morning.
That means since it's 1, i was actually born.
Wow, i've been alive for about a couple minutes.
I've been breathing for 16 whole years.
I've been living for 16 whole years.
365x18=5840
Damn, that's how many days.
How many days i've been alive.
You know life in this world, is tough.
Wouldn't it be something to die, on your birthday?
What if that happened to me?
And you didn't even get to say happy birthday to me.
I really hope you do still have love for me.
If you don't.
I GUESS it's okay.
I mean, yeah, i'll hurt.
I am now, just kind of hard to see though.
Maybe it'll help if you look, you know?
But hey, like i said though.
Guardian angels don't leave.
They just hover, to watch you.
They watch you make your mistakes.
Then literally, picks you up.
When you cry, why do you look down?
Cause of what's below you.
The ground, earth, dirt, hell.
Things that are there, but not noticed.
But when your done, crying.
I know you at least have to look up once, right?
I mean when i cry, i look up.
Cause i ask for help.
Cause you know, EVERYBODY knows, that i can't do anything myself.
So i look up, asking MY guardian angel for help.
Cause i need help.
Sorry, off topic here.
But yeah, everybodyknows.mp3
You heard it, did you comprehend it?
I know i did.
Cause that's what i'm shooting for.
Cause i know your looking for you gun, to shoot me.
Ha, thanks for everything Diana.
You showed me alot.
Since today is my birthday.
Means i'm getting older, slower, and somewhat wiser.
But i don't think i'm wise enough for anything.
I'd like to do everything for everybody, just to keep you guys happy.
Ryan, your one lucky man.
It hurts you know.
But, you can always heal.
That's what i call an opportunity.
Something that runs back, grows, regenerates.
Thanks guys for my birthday wishes.
I hope i get more.

-Birthday boy.

Business Law.

Hahaha, yeah i'm in 1A right now.
Don't you think they would have block this?
Isn't this considered social networking?
I mean, Twitter is blocked.
Hmmm, i don't want to use the filter though.
Freaking Mark with his damn cast.

Bathing apes.

My first initial reaction is to show i don't care.
But i....do.
I do care.
Most people think of revenge.
Most people think if she or he did this to you, then do it right back.
But not in all cases.
Especially in this case.
Even though i do that revnge shit, with other people.
This person isn't the same.
I could do so many things to you, and know that you won't care.
But i don't.
I know that if i do this, you'll notice me more.
Not like the way i wanted you to, but i know you'll know i'm still alive.
But no, i don't.
I don't know why.
Eveybody tells me the same things Diana.
They do, but i can't listen to them for some reason.

-Ignorant.

My time.

Enough said.

I guess the gloves are off now huh?

-Rocky

Karma.

Is a complete and total bitch.
Doesn't matter what you say.
Or how you say it.
In the end, karma kills everything.
But technically, i kill everything.
If it wasn't for me, karma wouldn't have never stuck around.
Therefore, sorry.
It might have been you in the beginning.
But it was me in the end.
I'm sorry, for everything.
Getting on your nerves, getting upset over little things, always showing off, getting you mixed up in things that you shouldn't have ever gotten mixed up in, being way to over protective, leaving you, then coming back, hurting you, hurting myself for you, always complaining, always acting scared, never talking, never stepping up to the "plate", always acting dumb, for lying, cheating, stealing your heart, manipulating you, pretending, crying for no reason, the screaming, the cussing, the hateful things i say, to continue, making you cry, making you yell, making you cuss, introducing you to a whole new world, sweeping you off your feet, and most importantly, i'm sorry for not trying.

-Christopher-Rey Dialeg Blancaflor

For a reason.

I don't know what's up with me.
Lol it's stupid how i treat my self.
But it's horrible how i treat others.
The golden rule huh Mrs. Roberts?
Ha, that's my Business Law teacher.
Do unto others what others unto you, some shit like that.
Haha i don't know man.
My back hurts.
Lol i think i'm just gonna warp myself in bubble wrap.
Okay?
I'll be safe.
No harm, no drama, no problems.

-Bubble boy.

Andhegetsthegirl.mp3

It's a pretty good song.
I like it, actually, i love it.
It's pretty cool.
I like the video that this random guy made.
"All is lost, it's the begining of the end."

-Lost.

Even though.

When i sit at home.
Not do anything, just endure all the pain.
I just think to myself.
But what do i think about?
Lol i really don't know.
Nothing funny about that though.
Sorry.

-Fuck

Yeah.

Why?
Do i keep on?
I don't have to.
I don't have to do anything.
I could stay home.
I could kill myself.
I could drink and smoke.
I could pull a Drake and Weezy.
I could do alot of things.
But i choose not to.
It's like fjskdlajfksdajfkldas.
But then it's like =]
But then it gets jfkdlsafjaskl.
fjskdla;fjklsd;jlkasjl;sdja;fldask

-Fuck

I have to prepare.

For what comes next.
Or for what happens later in the future I am not awae of.
Kind of hard talking like that.
Guess I can't do that.
Ouch.
Today was great.
I didn't like that damn noise.
The one I heard.
And the one I didn't hear.

-Dbj

Walking around.
Looking for a way.
But don't know which way to go.
I'm going to the wise with questions.
But they give me no answers.
Cause the wise are siting in pampers.
Typing on the iPhone is actually pretty easy.
Much better than the dare haha.

-blanc

I guess.

Haha Weezy know how i feel.
Ifeellikedying.mp3

-T'd off.

Whatever.

Whatever happen to everyday?
Whatever happen to always be there?
Whatever happen to i'll never hurt you?
Whatever happen to i'll never leave you?
Whatever happen to i hate one word answers?
Whatever happen to me?

-Lost.

Little old thing.

HA! *thinks back*
Have you seen those typical sad movies?
Where there is a dog and his owner.
They have the best time of their lives for a while.
But some unfortunate event happens.
Like the dog runs away, gets stolen, or something.
Or the original, the owner is forced to leave the poor dog at the park.
Just so somebody else could pick them up.
Basically leaving the poor dog there.
And that dog you used to love and play with and whatever else sits there.
Tongue out, tail wagging, and sitting down.
So happy, ready to fetch whatever you throw, ready to play tug-of-war, or anything else.
But the owner leaves the dog, without saying goodbye?
And the dog just sits there, and waits, and waits, and waits, and waits just hoping the owner would come back.
Ha, poor doggy.


-Little doggy.